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I haven't uploaded anything for a while now because I'm been trying to improve my drawing skills. For a while I've had this idealistic thought that my skills would improve even if I didn't study human anatomy. But when I stopped being so delusional and faced reality, that I was getting frustrated over my drawings due to ignorance over the human body, I stepped back from the Sonic fan art and sat myself down and studied. And studied. And studied.

But as I was doing that, all the while exposing myself to many other love interests and ideas along the way, I had a change in attitude about...well...

Why do I want to do Sonic fan comics?

Is it to be a part of the world? Self fulfillment? I mean I love the Sonic franchise and I always will, but I don't want to be about fan comics.
To clarify myself: When I informed you watchers on my last journal of Shadow having problems between the Commander being scratched out, that "In all honestly I have written out that plot, but that is an entirely different comic that I will not post on here and has nothing to do with Shadow", what I meant was that I have a Sonic fan comic that I've been working on for the longest now. For a really long time I mean, sheesh, it's ridiculous. And that my fan Sonic character that I created has problems with the Commander. When I first started on the comic, it was going nowhere. It wasn't until years later that it gained direction. And when it started going somewhere, I had to study human characters, because, well, many of my characters are  Sonic fan human characters that work for G.U.N. They run the plot, not the cannon characters.
And as I had to do this, I one day realized something: drawing Sonic fan characters was not only hindering my work, but was actually boring me! I look at them now and I'm more interested in the human characters. Of studying the human anatomy for the sake of the humans than to just place mobians and humans together, which was what inspired me to even do a plot around G.U.N. My cannons have even gone from an unnecessary load to only a few, and I began emphasizing my main characters. I slowly began to see that I want MY OWN WORLD. My own ORIGINAL characters that have NOTHING TO DO with Sonic or any other game/tv or whatever franchise. This is when I started asking myself: then why am I not making a comic around humans in my own original made up universe, not one that has already been planted out in front of me? Because I can make more of this plot if I take out the Sonic concept. If I do this, the other ideas, like the whole plot revolving around the army, I can keep it. It just can't be G.U.N. because that's with the Sonic franchise. But I don't know if I want to.

But I do know one thing for sure: Sonic fan art, fan art in general, is beginning to lose my interest. I'm not really passionate about it anymore.

So, because my interest has suddenly changed, for this reason I will not be doing that " Team Dark comic". Sorry for getting everyone's hopes up. I deeply apologize.

However!

When I say no Sonic fan comic and that I'm not passionate about fan art, I don't mean I may not do some. If I do, they'll most likely be short. It just means it won't dominate my art gallery anymore. I have already written another  particular story with fan characters and cannon that is very short, but when I look at it, there's real potential in just taking the Sonic concept and throwing it out the window. I might just post that comic because that plot is already finished.

Please don't get the wrong idea: this doesn't mean I think people with fan characters are losers, suck at drawing or whatnot or whatever because that is in no way true.  I watch people due to those interesting characters and I have my own, I'd be a hypocrite if I made a statement like that. Besides I still love the idea of fan characters! It's fun. It gets you writing and drawing (whichever it is you do, even if both) For me, starting this off as a fan comic benefited me: being so focused on G.U.N. made me interested in understanding how the army works, of actually making a story of it.

Again, I don't know what I want to do about that fan comic. But I do know that if I end up keeping that fan comic and going through with it, it will be the only fan comic I'll do for the sake of the plot. I'm just really passionate about that comic because it has finally come together after all this time. It might have to do with the fact that it has gotten me through a lot. It gave me something to look forward to when things were getting rough in my life. And I feel like changing that will erase those memories. So I'm stuck between what to do.

I don't know that sort of sounds like a stupid excuse. Time will tell I guess, it just seems more worth it to create my own world.

What do you guys think?

P.S.

You've all heard of the "Sonic Boom" news. But for those who care, did anyone hear about the Ratchet and Clank movie coming out in 2015? Man, I'm so hyped!

Alright, the plot has been majorly changed.

I'm not going to reveal too much, but yeah, what I wrote before...what I wrote a long time ago, about him having problems with the Commander have been scratched out. That was just an idea, but it was never placed in writing (In all honestly I have written out that plot, but that is an entirely different comic that I will not post on here and has nothing to do with Shadow). The plot I have been thinking of and is in process has.

The plot revolve around Shadow and his problem, though I will not reveal what that problem is. I don't know if Omega will be in it, maybe he will just be mentioned. I can somewhat draw robots, since I understand the human body better and see that it really is no different in the case of a robot, but still. There will be supporting characters, there will be main characters, and one cameo, but the majority characters will be people no one will expect.

I'll place sketches of these people when I actually brainstorm them, because I don't even know what I want them to look like, but DON'T WORRY. I am working on this comic. It's just that I am doing the script, cause in NO WAY am I improvising. Nope.

 To do that= Pointless and ineffective.

No, I'm not talking about the comic. I'm taking about drawing period. Why is it that when I draw from memory, I can capture the mass and feel of the picture, but when I try and copy one, it takes long to get that same feel? Sure I learn something new (and I really have by the way) but it takes long. I'm not complaining at the learning process because I know this takes patience, but if I can quickly sketch from memory without being accurate, leave it as it is, and it looks fine, but not be able to copy a picture without struggling to get the mass and feel of the picture when I'm starting to copy it something must be wrong. Shouldn't it be the other way around?

Like today I'm practicing drawing faces by using the teardrop method. On the computer, I copied a face today that took all day, but when I did a sketch of a cartoon human face from memory, it came out well! I'm not even really trying, I'm just going by feel. I don't know if I'm just over reacting here, but I feel like something's not right. Is it because I'm used to drawing this character?

You know, for a while I've noticed that there are many ShadRouge comics but no actual Team Dark comics (excluding fan fiction writing, because I just don't read them). If there is a comic, then I just haven't seen it yet, but I know that there aren't many on deviantART. I remember trying to look for a good Dark Team story a while back, not finding any, and being disappointed because any story on them would be interesting. So, because I've always wanted to draw a story on them and because I need to draw comics more, I've decided that I'll draw a comic on them.

The comic's plot will revolve around the missions they go on, their friendship, and of course G.U.N. I've decided that conflict will also revolve around G.U.N. (the Commander) because along with Shadow's story, G.U.N.'s affiliation in the world is extremely interesting to me and I've always imagined drama between them and the group, mainly because of Shadow.

Unlike that other stupid attempt to do some weird Saw/Sonic crossover, I'm going to plan this, so its going to take a while for anything to come up. I'm not sure if I will include Omega though since I cant draw robots, but I'm hoping that I can. However, he's not going to be stressed in the friendship zone as much as Rouge and Shadow (though there will be some good Shadow and Omega moments), but not without conflict.

No shipping, WITH ANY CHARACTERS THAT MAY APPEAR IN THIS COMIC, but "The true power of teamwork" will be stressed to the extreme, so anyone who does not like the power of teamwork should beware.

I started school four days ago and this year feels different, probably because I'm in my senior year and I'm going to be doing a lot of different things like preparing for college and all that, and then its off to college. And yet, all I can think about is how I'm so angry that my drawing vibe came back weeks before school. When there were days (and there still are days)where it was too hot to draw, there are now days where I have too much homework. But on the bright side, I'm getting fresh air and exercise again (lol), and I'll be drawing a lot more this year especially since I'm taking Studio Art; I haven't taken a drawing class since 2010.

So expect to see more drawings.