I haven't uploaded anything for a while now because I'm been trying to improve my drawing skills. For a while I've had this idealistic thought that my skills would improve even if I didn't study human anatomy. But when I stopped being so delusional and faced reality, that I was getting frustrated over my drawings due to ignorance over the human body, I stepped back from the Sonic fan art and sat myself down and studied. And studied. And studied.
But as I was doing that, all the while exposing myself to many other love interests and ideas along the way, I had a change in attitude about...well...
Why do I want to do Sonic fan comics?
Is it to be a part of the world? Self fulfillment? I mean I love the Sonic franchise and I always will, but I don't want to be about fan comics.
To clarify myself: When I informed you watchers on my last journal of Shadow having problems between the Commander being scratched out, that "In all honestly I have written out that plot, but that is an entirely different comic that I will not post on here and has nothing to do with Shadow", what I meant was that I have a Sonic fan comic that I've been working on for the longest now. For a really long time I mean, sheesh, it's ridiculous. And that my fan Sonic character that I created has problems with the Commander. When I first started on the comic, it was going nowhere. It wasn't until years later that it gained direction. And when it started going somewhere, I had to study human characters, because, well, many of my characters are Sonic fan human characters that work for G.U.N. They run the plot, not the cannon characters.
And as I had to do this, I one day realized something: drawing Sonic fan characters was not only hindering my work, but was actually boring me! I look at them now and I'm more interested in the human characters. Of studying the human anatomy for the sake of the humans than to just place mobians and humans together, which was what inspired me to even do a plot around G.U.N. My cannons have even gone from an unnecessary load to only a few, and I began emphasizing my main characters. I slowly began to see that I want MY OWN WORLD. My own ORIGINAL characters that have NOTHING TO DO with Sonic or any other game/tv or whatever franchise. This is when I started asking myself: then why am I not making a comic around humans in my own original made up universe, not one that has already been planted out in front of me? Because I can make more of this plot if I take out the Sonic concept. If I do this, the other ideas, like the whole plot revolving around the army, I can keep it. It just can't be G.U.N. because that's with the Sonic franchise. But I don't know if I want to.
But I do know one thing for sure: Sonic fan art, fan art in general, is beginning to lose my interest. I'm not really passionate about it anymore.
So, because my interest has suddenly changed, for this reason I will not be doing that " Team Dark comic". Sorry for getting everyone's hopes up. I deeply apologize.
When I say no Sonic fan comic and that I'm not passionate about fan art, I don't mean I may not do some. If I do, they'll most likely be short. It just means it won't dominate my art gallery anymore. I have already written another particular story with fan characters and cannon that is very short, but when I look at it, there's real potential in just taking the Sonic concept and throwing it out the window. I might just post that comic because that plot is already finished.
Please don't get the wrong idea: this doesn't mean I think people with fan characters are losers, suck at drawing or whatnot or whatever because that is in no way true. I watch people due to those interesting characters and I have my own, I'd be a hypocrite if I made a statement like that. Besides I still love the idea of fan characters! It's fun. It gets you writing and drawing (whichever it is you do, even if both) For me, starting this off as a fan comic benefited me: being so focused on G.U.N. made me interested in understanding how the army works, of actually making a story of it.
Again, I don't know what I want to do about that fan comic. But I do know that if I end up keeping that fan comic and going through with it, it will be the only fan comic I'll do for the sake of the plot. I'm just really passionate about that comic because it has finally come together after all this time. It might have to do with the fact that it has gotten me through a lot. It gave me something to look forward to when things were getting rough in my life. And I feel like changing that will erase those memories. So I'm stuck between what to do.
I don't know that sort of sounds like a stupid excuse. Time will tell I guess, it just seems more worth it to create my own world.
What do you guys think?
You've all heard of the "Sonic Boom" news. But for those who care, did anyone hear about the Ratchet and Clank movie coming out in 2015? Man, I'm so hyped!